Well, the holidays are over for the most part. I have to say, I’m relieved. It seemed like this Christmas, I was under more pressure than ever. Especially now that we’re not living in Georgia anymore. We didn’t do any of our Christmas traditions this year, which include hot chocolate and The Polar Express, new ornaments and snow globes for each child, Christmas Eve jammies and baked french toast on Christmas morning. I was feeling like a total failure. I mean, we didn’t even put up a Christmas tree!!
Fortunately for me, I have a very supportive and compassionate husband, and a wonderful set of in-laws, to help me keep my mind off of my “failings” as a parent. Did I mention this was Paisley’s first Christmas? Yeah. I’m sure you can imagine the disappointment I felt in myself.
Now I’m not one to go blaming everything on the devil. Sometimes, we reap bad things because we make dumb decisions. But I think, this time, he had it out for me. Go ahead and call me crazy. I don’t care. I’ve been called worse. Recently, too. 🙂
Because we were spending our Christmas in Nashville, Bella’s dad and stepmom offered to meet us in Chattanooga on Christmas eve. This worked out great for us because instead of 6 hours in the car, we only had to spend 3 hours in the car. This was planned for at least 2 weeks in advance, but probably more. The day before we were going to meet, he decides he doesn’t want to meet anymore. I saw it coming, I have to admit. For some reason, I keep trusting in man when I should be trusting in God. You think I would have learned by now!! Sheesh!!
But just as a protective Father does, He came to my rescue. What the enemy meant for harm, God turned it around and made into something, not just good, but great!! Just like Romans 8:28 says, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.” To see this scripture in action was something I will never be able to describe. But let me just say, wow!!!!!
It’s hard hearing your daughter tell you that you’re being talked about in a negative way. It’s hard to hear her express her anger towards her father, and to remind her that she still has to respect and honor him. It makes me want to throw up, honestly. How can you respect someone that is constantly lying to you, manipulating you and trying to alienate you? My daughter’s strength is admirable. She’s starting to see things for what they really are. But I know that this is necessary for what God wants to do in her life. I’m grateful that He has her in the palm of His hand.
I will leave you with this.
Job 42:10 “And the Lord restored Job’s losses when he prayed for his friends. Indeed the Lord gave Job twice as much as he had before.”
Even though they are not my friends, I still have to pray for them and bless them. Just like I tell Bella, I have to do what’s right in God’s eyes, even if no one else is doing it.