Now, this is a story all about how my life got flipped, turned upside down. And I’d like to take a minute, just sit right there, I’ll tell you how I became….oh wait. Wrong story!
Seriously though, it’s been almost a year since my life changed drastically. When it happened, I never thought I would be here. In this place. This place of peace. I thought I would be stuck in the dark forever.
Let me back track a little for you.
I went on a “blogging hiatus”, if you will. I was a wreck. I was hurting. It was the hardest moments of my life. I say moments because I felt like I had to get through each of them. But God has been doing a beautiful thing in my life lately. It doesn’t look big to some. You may not even notice if you see me. But it’s there.
He’s reminded me that love covers a multitude of sins. Love wins. Remember that? I saw that bumper sticker everywhere. I never took much notice of it until now.
So I started applying this mantra to my everyday life. Repeating it over and over again in traffic. At the DMV. In the grocery store. It didn’t affect the people around me. But it affecting me so profoundly, that I wanted love to win everywhere I went! It’s helped me in my relationship with my ex-husband as well. Whaaaat? I know. I never thought I could be in a place where I said “ex-husband” and “relationship” in the same sentence. I was so bitter and angry at him for taking me to court over custody in the first place. I’m still trying to walk that one out. You feel me??
Ok now to my point. I’ve been praying for a year now that God would fulfill His promise and answer my prayer. Well, today, Bella was sick all day with some stomach bug junk. We prayed over her, like we always do. About 30 minutes later, she threw up again. But after that, she wasn’t sick anymore. Like she made a total turnaround. You’re thinking “so what?”, right?
No! Not so what!! God showed me that just because He doesn’t answer your prayer the way YOU think He should, doesn’t mean He’s not going to. God is a God of order. He likes things organized (He would not be happy with my pantry!!). Yes, He could fix it all with a wave of His God-hand. But I think He prefers us to do some of the legwork too. Because we can learn from it and we can grow from it.
This photograph was taken by my beautiful friend Amber.