Over the past 2 weeks, I’ve seen this phrase in the most random places. Trust the Process. Let me explain.
This Sunday marked my first full week on competition prep. It was harder than I thought it would be. The workout part is no big deal. That’s the easiest part of the whole thing. The eating though…that’s where you find out what you’re really made of. It takes a tremendous amount of self-control. Especially when you eat the same thing. Every single day. It becomes a task instead of something you enjoy. But it’s been worth it! I’m starting to see my abs. My pants are getting loose in the waist. My confidence is growing.
Some of you know that I’ve been flirting with the idea of doing a competition for a couple years now. My excuses would always stop me. What if I can’t do it? What if I fail? What will people think of me parading around in a bikini? Am I being a good example for my kids? Am I too old? All of these things on replay in my head until they became too loud to ignore and I quit before I even started. I truly am my own worst enemy. BUT. Something changed after my birthday. When I first started working out, they were fueled by pain. My heart hurt so much that the only thing that took the pain away were the weights. Now that pain has subsided for the most part. Don’t get me wrong. Some days are better than others, but at least I don’t cry anymore! My workouts are fueled by this intrinsic drive that I can’t explain. Each day I wake up and strive to be better than the day before. Competing against myself, as cliche as that sounds.
I’ve always read that bodybuilding is a selfish sport, and I agree with that wholeheartedly. That’s why I don’t normally like to workout with anyone. You just get in the way. That sounds harsh, but I’m sure most people with the same goals would agree. That being said, if we’ve ever worked out together before or I’ve invited you, know that was a big step for me! I’ve realized that sometimes, it’s better together. There’s something about having someone to hold you accountable. A community. That’s why I overshare on Instagram. I want you to know my struggles and my victories. My highs and my lows. I hired a prep coach, and now I’m a part of a team. People to cheer for me on the days I struggle the most (Mondays) and celebrate with me when I hit a new PR. I highly recommend you get out of your comfort zone step out. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting a different result. I was tired of of acting insane. I got stuck doing what was comfortable. Now I feel stronger than I ever have before. Not just physically, but mentally. I’ve removed toxic people from my life. That “block” button does wonders! 😉 I’ve stopped worrying so much about what people think of me. I’m (still trying) to stop letting the negative words, of people that were dear to me, have said. Turn your pain into power. Let it transform you.
Transformation Tuesday isn’t just about the physical. What others say about you doesn’t make it a reality. Surround yourself with people that will help you create a new path for you instead of reminding you of all your past mistakes. We don’t live in the past anymore!
One last thing. My kids are my biggest cheerleaders. They see my discipline and dedication and me taking care of myself. They love to show me how many squats and push-ups they can do. I would say it’s turned out to be a pretty good influence.